Monday, 19 September 2011

I'm alive!

Hey! So my friend jokingly sent me a bb message on Sunday morning binding and casting the spirit of depression, addiction (not anything bad I promise!), lethargy and everything else that seems to have taken over my life for the past few weeks. I knew things were quite bad because I looked at the message and didn't even smile, but just turned over and went back to sleep. Life sucks. That's been my mantra for a few weeks now, and I feel kinda bad admitting that because, you know, as Christians we feel like we should be happy all the time and speak by faith and say 'God is good, life is great' even when we don't feel like it. And in a sense, yes, we should. God is good, all the time. Whether we feel it or not. But, sometimes life does suck, and there is no harm in owning up and saying 'you know what, I haven't got it all together, I feel overwhelmed and could do with some help'. Sharing really does wonders for the soul. Honestly. 

So as I said in a previous post I'm usually the one holding people up and encouraging my friends when they're down, but recently, I've had to share some stuff that I wouldn't usually share with some of them. I've had to admit that I haven't got all the answers, and even though I know what the Bible says, I still feel helpless sometimes. I've even had to pour out my heart to people that aren't Christians (I know, shock horror!) just because I needed someone to talk to. But it's been good. It's brought me closer to my friends, and it's made me rely even more on God. And like I said before, God is good, and faithful, and it's great that even when I feel like I'm fed up with this whole 'following Christ' thing, He keeps on loving me, and waits patiently for me to come back. And by His grace, I do.

Ok, the point of me sharing my heart just then was really to encourage you. Christians go through hard times. Mega-hard times, just like everyone else. We can choose to let it overwhelm us or we can hold on to God's word that says He'll bring us through it. He's got good plans for you, He's constantly thinking about you. Seriously. It may be hard to believe when you're in the thick of things but it's true. Try not to rely on your feelings so much, because well, you can't rely on them. But you can rely on God's word. He will bring you through, just like He promised.

So, my friend said that if I start blogging again (not that I ever stopped) she would know that her binding and casting actually worked. I must say, I think it did, so thank you best friend!

In other news, I haven't forgotten about my birthday post by the way. I've had some lovely (and some insane) suggestions, and I'm excited (and a bit nervous) to give them a go! I worked out that the countdown starts on the 23rd (I didn't realise that it was so soon!) I know I said I would do a list of the 27 things, but seeing as life got in the way, I haven't actually made the list. But, not to worry, I will still be doing 27 things, but unfortunately you won't get to know what they are until the countdown begins. It's all about the suspense people, and trust me, it'll be worth the wait. I hope. 

I need to sleep now. Hope you enjoyed reading, feel free to drop some more suggestions if you have any and who knows, I might just go for yours! See you on the 23rd, and have a fantastic week!

2 comments:

  1. hi! this isn't the first thing that comes to mind when we go through difficult times, but God's word to us is to rejoice, always... rejoice because He's not given you more than u can bear(even when it seems like more) rejoice because a plan is being worked out, and its end is so good it'll blow you away, and most of all, rejoice because his banner over you is love, you have a Father in heaven that will never leave you, when you're in trouble, He's right there in it with you... so rejoice today for we shall soon be together, again.(should i still bring frank?

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  2. I love this post and you're so right! I woke up this morning and felt bad that i let some annoying activities get to me yesterday and it got in the way of me truly acting like a Christian. And i judged myself as not being Christlike and not acting as God would rather have me but when i read this post, i'm consoled that its ok to be down in the dumps sometimes but its not okay to stay in the dump! :)..i guess you feel better now, and if you don't, just call me and i'll give you stuff to laugh about! On the list of 27things to do, go on the most scary ride in an amusement park! Something tells me you wouldn't normally be that adventurous, so give it a go! ;).. i can escort you if the timing is right..

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